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( Some more about myself for the me-clueless )

Ok so I'm very sorry for that last depressing entry. It was stupid and pointless. Sometimes I just hate life. People put you through crap and don't care at all.
Also sorry that I haven't updated sooner. Been busy writing like the great author that I am :) or not....
So in light of all my sadness, there is someone interesting on the horizon. Or at least someone who seems interested in me. His name is Dave and he's a good friend. We've went to some movies together, talked, sat around listening to music, hung out at his house. It's weird, we're like dating but we've never actually said "ok what are we now? a couple?" I guess that's ok. I hope this continues in one way but in another way I still can't get over Hayden. It's like there's this huge hole where the rest of my heart should be and nothing fills it up except him. I don't know. Perhaps in time. Who can tell.
Anyway, so plans to move have been halted. Until the money train stops by my place anyway. It makes me sad but then again maybe it's for the best. I mean - I've grown so accustomed to everything here and I have some friends that I would be saddened to leave. Ah well. That's all for me now. More later.

So life sucks when you can't be with the person you love. Especially if they don't love you.

Or maybe they once did, but that's all different now. Now they don't feel the same way at all. And that saddens you. You are so upset that you want to slit your throat. Or hang yourself. Or slit your wrists and lie bleeding to death.

Love sucks. Big time.

- So this was a really depressing entry. At for that I am sorry.

BASICS:
1. Name: Miette
2. Nicknames: Nicol, Nicho, Mi, Mi-Mi
3. Age: 22
4. Birthday: October 31, 1982
5. Grade: n/a
6. School: see above question
7. Where do you live?: Bloomington for now, Indy later
8. Pets: Goldfish and dog
9. Hobbies: writing, listening to music, yelling :)
10. Brothers: 1
11. Sisters: none

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE:
12. Hair Color: brown
13. Eye Color: blue
14. Height: 5'4
15. Weight: 135
16. Contacts or Glasses?: Sometimes glasses, usually contacts
17. Braces?: Nope

FAVORITES
18. Color: Orange
19. Drink: Vanilla Coke
20. Food: Pizza
21. Dessert: Chocolate cake
22. Restaurant: Olive Garden
23. TV Show: Alias (when I watch it which is isn't often)
24. Smell: Good stuff
25. Flavor: don't know
26. Flower: daisy
27. Book: too many
28. Author: way too many
29. Musical Group: too many again
30. Singer: errrrrrrr
31. Kind of Music: hard
32. Song: boulevard of broken dreams
33. Number: 12
34. Movie: the nightmare before christmas
35. Day of the Week: saturday
36. State: california
37. Brand Name: nah...
38. Animal: horse

THIS OR THAT
39. Coke or Pepsi: Coke
40. Light or Dark: Dark
41. Day or Night: Night
42. Black or White: Black
43. Pen or Pencil: Pen
44. TV or Movies: Movies
45. Kool Aid or Tea: Tea
46. Cat or Dog: Cat
47. CDs or Radio: CDs
48. Short Stories or Poems: Both
49. Black or White: Stupid thing, already asked that
50. Walk or Run: Walk
51. Pants or Shorts: Pants
52. Slipknot or Korn: eh
53. DMX or Nelly: eh
54. N SYNC or BSB: blah
55. Alcoholic or Non Alcoholic Drinks: alcoholic
56. Cigarettes or Weed: cigarettes
57. Milk or Water: water
58. Hair-Up or Down: hair up

LOVE LIFE
59. Do you have a b/f or g/f? Nope
60. If so, who?
61. How long have you been a couple?
62. Do you have a crush? Nah
63. Who?
64. How long have you liked them?
65. Are you friends with your crush?
66. Do you believe in love at first sight? No, love stinks
67. Have you kissed a girl? No
68. Have you kissed a guy? Yes
69. Have you ever been in love? I believe so
70. If so, with who? ha!

YOUR FUTURE
71. Are you going to college? Nope
72. If so, which college?
73. What do you want to be? No idea
74. Where are you going to live? I don't know
75. Are you going to get married? Probably not
76. To who?
77. Are you going to have kids? Maybe someday
78. How many?
79. What are some good girl names?
1. Lucia
2. Susanna
3. Melodie
80. What are some good boy names?
1. Douglas
2. Hayden
3. Jude
RANDOM QUESTIONS
81. What's your favorite holiday? Halloween because it's my birthday
82. How many pillows do you sleep with? 3
83. What are you doing right now? looking at the computer screen
84. What CD do you listen to the most? not sure
85. What's your favorite radio station? don't have one
86. Do you have a stereo?  yes
87. Do you watch Oprah?  no
88. Who's your favorite talk show host? maury
89. What TV channel do you watch the most? tbs
90. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? no
91. Are you the oldest sibling in your family? no
92. Do you bite your nails? no
93. Do you like candles? yes i do
94. How fast can you type?  decent
95. What are you wearing?  clothes
96. How many hours do you usually sleep?  2
97. What time do you get up on a school day? what school
98. What time do you get up on a weekend? 12
99. What are you doing this weekend or this week?  who knows
100. Have you ever shoplifted?  probably
101. If so, what?  clothes
102. Do you paint or draw?  doodle occassionally
103. Are you wearing shoes? no
104. How's the weather where you're at?  cold
105. What's under your bed? giant rats (just a joke)
106. What posters are in your room?  lord of the rings, phantom of the opera, nightmare before christmas
107. How many pets do you have?  2
108. Do you have a swimming pool?  no
109. Do you eat chocolate?  yes

Yah, new Journal. Exciting stuff. Had one on xanga. Hate xanga. It's gay.
Guess I should probably introduce myself and things to people who don't know me. Eh, I'll do it later.

Not too much to say about today. 'Twas Boring.
Did laundry, dishes, chatted with some old friends, worked on new stories and stuff, hopefully I can send them in sometime soon.
Went to McDonald's for lunch and observed people downtown. That was exciting. It's always fun to write stories about people you observe. Or at least I think it is anyway.

More later - phone's ringing.